Saturday, August 21, 2010

DEAFENED BY MY OWN SILENCES. . .


I m sitting here. . amidst the cheerful surroundings. . .who mock me at my empty heart. . .they are filled up. . not completely. . .i guess that's what gives them the empty space which is much needed. . and i sit here. . brimming with my emotions. . .brimming with my thoughts. . .
tears stream down the facade of the cold glass. . .like it does run through my heart. . .
i have tried enough but nothing seems to work. . .everything seems so wrong. . .so lonely. . .and for once am feeling lonely not alone. . .
some say. . i am a lost soul. . .lost in my own fictitious sorrows. . .i guess they say the truth. . for i am lost . .but don't know where. . .my hearts turned grey. . .and nothing helps. . can't seem to pray. .
i read somewhere. . when lord wants you to come back to him. . .he disconnects you. . .from the world. . .so that you feel empty for no reason. . .you feel you need to get back to your home. . .is that the case with me too?
is my time on earth running out?
i don't know.. . .but I'll just  live in the thought of some better world. . m not scared. . .if its the end. . or the beginning. . coz am a little sort of numbed by these periodical occurrings. . .
i lie here. . DEAFENED BY M OWN SILENCES. . .looking for something or some one to fix me. . .

13 comments:

  1. Why are you feeling like this? i know it's a bit stupid of me to ask "why" but.. just wait for the right time, Pramati. I am sure better times are in your near timeline. Just have faith in Him.

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  2. hmmmm. . .yea. . .i hav faith in HIM. . .i need to have faith in me. . .
    . . I hav bin travelin on dis road too long. .
    jus tryna find my way back home. . .
    da OLD me IS dead nd GONE . .

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  4. @ Pramati... And you are trying to find that OLD one in NEW one... but... lost... because access denied... biometric checker is not permitting you...

    It's very hard... most difficult... but still...

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  5. BUT STILL. . .nothings impossible right. . and that proves true in my new blogpost!

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  6. This one is for your new blog...

    Hmmm... Last line is absolutely true... we never realize but this is the only realization that is real and so behave in real manner.. mother's love... absolutely right...

    but i will say ... apart from that... the tone is compromising... right... just because you are unable to find something .. so you are compromising... aim should be reaching at goal.. isn't?

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  7. Yeah. . But somethinz beter dan nothin,right?

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  8. proverbs and proverbs and proverbs... damn to these...

    will any one feel happy living handicapped life? .. in exceptional case... for some one will say... YES... but no wants an exception in life.

    A full stop is full stop...


    Your note is good one... content is good one... what ever written there is good one... but what you feel?....

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  10. i feel that sometimes when you are drowning. . you do with whatever you find to keep you afloat,u cant wait that long for some one to come and take you out,u just have to hold onto anything,which can keep you alive. . .but then being alive just for the sake of it. . isnt actually being alive. . but then again,if you can help it you dont die,you dont waste this precious life. . even if doesnt mean anythin 2 u. . it does mean to some one else.

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  11. Some one else... interesting.... !!!

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  12. Hmmm. . .cud b anyone. . .u dnt live without touchin ppl around u 'z life.

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